Life Lately No. 18

I only have the energy to share my life in quotes from people I admire. Iyanla Vanzant … You’re in charge or your life, not in control of your life. HEALING First the heart breaks then it soars. Marianne Williamson LEARNING Sometimes good things fall apart so better things can fall together. – Norma Jean […]

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Life Lately No. 17

I got a dog! Okay this statement isn’t entirely true. Not yet anyway. I may be getting a dog. And if/when I get her I’m going to name her Stella! Dog training is teaching me more about myself than the pitbull and I’m loving every single second of it. I took a bit from a dog […]

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Life Lately No. 16

Being back home is tough. I experienced some bad symptoms while in Rwanda in respect to my PTSD. I’m feeling a little better now but I have some tough phone calls to make. The airline made a mistake when booking my return flight and I spent an extra night in the city of Kigali. Healing.  […]

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Life Lately No. 15

Gratitude changes everything. I’m ready to go home. I’m going home with so many amazing memories from Rwanda. I love this country and the people who live here. HEALING I feel like Rwanda helped me heal at an exponential rate. Being away from my home country and losing site of where I am and who […]

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Life Lately No. 14

If only I could stay grounded in the present moment! But so many people who absolutely do not understand what it means to have PTSD, depression, and anxiety HEALING This week has been hard. I just need space to heal. LEARNING People don’t really care what you’re going through. They care about how what you’re […]

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Life Lately No. 13

I spoke! I spoke!!! I gave my testimony at the Woman’s Foundations ministry and I remembered my words. Everything came together just as I prayed it would! HEALING My anxiety is fading making it easier to speak. I’m still experiencing some residual effects from therapy last week but I spoke with my therapist and she […]

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Life Lately No. 12

The motherland is great! I can’t believe I’m here in Rwanda again! I’m on another continent in a magnificent country! HEALING Most of my wounds from last week are still open. I’m having horrible dreams. I wish I could make it all go away. I cannot so I’ve resolved to just let it flow. I […]

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Life Lately No. 11

I’m still so terrified. I don’t use this term lightly. Therapy this week was earth shattering. So many things came up that I wish I could un-know, un-see, and not remember. Which I guess is why my brain made me forget in the first place. Now that all this terror has resurfaced I just don’t […]

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Life Lately No. 10

Instead of worrying about what others think about you concentrate on what you think about yourself. HEALING. Healing is completely painful. I wish I couldn’t remember! I wish I couldn’t remember! I don’t want to remember. My therapist is amazing but I am so overwhelmed by everything I’m remembering. LEARNING. I’ve committed myself to healing. […]

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Life Lately No. 9

Feeling everything. The worse part about being healthy is feeling EVERYTHING. I’ve always known myself to be physically sensitive (I.e. Teeth, skin, eyes) etc. but imagine my surprise to learn that I am as emotionally sensitive as I am physically sensitive. Like stuff that doesn’t typically hurt other people (I.e. Words) seer through my flesh […]

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